Sunday, September 28, 2008

A Walk to Remember

Today Share of Lancaster put on a walk to remember all of the babies we have lost. We arrived and put on our tee-shirts (on the back was all the babies names).

We ran into a friend of Lyz's who had also lost a baby at 17 weeks. The difference between her story and ours is amazing. I so wish that Blue's death would have been better handled by the hospital. I think this is what I am having the hardest problem letting go of, the fact that I totally feel that the hospital stole a part of our son from us. Now is not the time to get into it, some other post, some other day.

We then made candles to light during a candle lighting ceremony and then it was time for them to unveil a plague. It was rainy so they were trying to get things done quickly. Two years ago at the walk they had dedicated a bench, they call it the Beloved Babies Bench. This year they offered to put your baby's name on a plaque next to it for a donation.

The Beloved Babies Bench:

The Plaque:

Close up of Blue's Name:

Then we walked around the park. It was called a Walk to Remember!!

After the walk we took the chance to get more pictures with the bench.
Jenn and I behind the plaque:

Chris, Lyz and Avery on the bench:

After the walk there was a whole program planned, but none of us really wanted to be there anymore, so we left and went to an early supper (as Chris had to get to work). As we sat down to eat, not even 10 mins later, it started to downpour. I feel so bad that the program may have gotten ruined.

In the program we were able to write messages to our babies.

Our dearest Blue-we miss you so much. Not a single moment goes by without our hearts and arms aching to hold you. Know your mommies love you more and more with every passing day.
Love, your Mommies.

Lyz, Chris and Avery's: (I'm leaving their last name blank)
L____ Angles-Forever loved, forever missed. Love, Mommy, Daddy and Avery.

One more thing from the back of the program that I feel the need to share, because it was so beautiful to me.

I worte your name in the clouds;
The wind blew it away.

I wrote your name in the sand;
The ocean washed it away.

God wrote your name in the heavens;
And he took you away.

You wrote your name in my heart;
And that is where you'll stay.
~Author Unknown


Lizzie said...

I'm so glad that you were able to attend, and add Blueberry's name to the plaque. It doesn't take the pain away, but it is an important ritual. Much love.

B said...

K told me that there was an event like this one here in Houston this weekend. I wish I had known, because I would have wanted to attend. I'm glad you guys went, I hope that it helped to ease the pain if only for a little while.

tbean said...

Thank you for sharing the poems and messages and photos. I'm glad you were able to have such a special way to collectively celebrate and note Blue's life. xoxo

Anonymous said...

I heart you! I am so lucky to have you

Anonymous said...

Events like these can be cleansing - I hope it was good for you. I know it's not going to erase the pain, of course. xo