Thursday, May 7, 2009

Softball game...and a small, TTC related, panic attack.

We won our softball game again tonight!! That makes us 3-0. Tonight's game was especially awesome because every single girl hit and got on base!! It was so awesome to see their happy faces!!!! And the parents faces being so proud of their girls!

I was very proud of Belle...not only did she do an awesome job pitching, but she several good plays in the infield with catching or throwing the balls!!


To be honest though, I think Jenn did more pitching than any of the girls on either team! (If a girl gets 4 balls thrown to her, instead of walking, her coach comes out and pitches to her)

A few of our girls had to leave early, and that left us with only one outfielder. Very rarely does the ball actually get hit into the outfield, so we used a substitute...Avery!

(We sent Chris out with her just to be safe)

On to the panic. Last night I had a minor meltdown. We watched the movie The Business of Being Born. It was very interesting, didn't really didn't teach me anything that I didn't already know, but it was fun to watch! I will never have the peaceful home birth in a pool that I wanted. I'm too high risk now with the losses, and my advanced maternal age. And besides, at this point I want all the fetal monitoring I can get my hands on. But I do still want it to be somewhat peaceful

But today, in fact 10 minutes ago I had a whole new panic. All of our paperwork is in and we are ready to order our swimmers from the new sperm bank that we will be using. I got the email tonight. That means that this week we took two steps towards the TTC front. I've been trying to slowly enter my way back into the TTC world...two steps in one week is a little much for me!! (step one was receiving my wonderful package of drugs from Lori!) All will be well though.

This means that everything is a go. Sperm...check. Drugs...check. Woah. All we are waiting on now is my period...I say we have about two weeks to go before that shows up, since I'm not on drugs. We've bought our tickets, we are just waiting for the train to pull into the station!!

9 comments:

Mrs. Spit said...

Hurrah!

halfadozen said...

Oh heidi, I am so excited for you and Jen! I can imagine how hard TTC again is for you both... I will keep you guys in my thoughts as you start this journey again!

hugs...

anofferingoflove said...

we just taped "the business of being born" and are planning to watch over the weekend. im not going to get one of those dreamy homebirths either...

i am so excited for you two & will be cheering you on SO loudly!

B said...

You're ready, it will be okay. Love you!

Chris said...

There's no way you're of advanced maternal age!! I'm pretty sure that I'm older than you and I'm not considered "advanced" (yet).

I'm really excited for you and Jenn. I hope this cycle is everything you've been hoping for. <3

Tara said...

I am so hoping you two get to take a ride on that train!! You'll be the best Mommas.

Teaberry said...

I've got to see this "Business of Being Born"--it was mentioned twice in the last few days on some of my favorite blogs!

I get the anxiety thing and know that's tough to work through. But, you've got my good vibes headed your way!

Hey, pop on over to mine, if you get a chance... Similar story to your recent good fortune over there.

IrishNYC said...

I can't wait for you to get on that train! (And I cannot believe you are of advanced maternal age! I call bull!)

JamieD said...

I am so excited for you! And for all you and Jenn have been through, I think a small panic attack was warranted.