Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Nerves

Tomorrow. Beta #3. Sooo worried. 95% of me wants to just assume all is well. I mean there has been no spotting, my boobs are becoming increasingly sore, I'm as tired as can be, and the gagging sessions each night entertain Jenn so much. So all seems well.

Then there is that other 5% of me that says "What makes you think that all could possibly be well?" I've become attached to my cramps. I remember having the same feeling early on with Blue. But, when I'm feeling crampy I'm convinced something is wrong. Now this morning, I haven't felt a bit crampy, nothing, nada, so I'm convinced something is wrong. Everything else is the same.

So I sit here. Still. Focusing. Is that a crampy twinge I feel??? Nope, I have to pee. See another sign that all is well...why must I always focus on the one thing that will freak me out??

I'll be out and about most of tomorrow, so I'll update as soon as we get home. If it's good news maybe I'll update it on Twitter (down there on the lower right...where I tend to talk about cows as of late). If it's bad news....you'll just have to wait till I blog it! But, I'm 95% thinking good, just have to keep that 5% of me quiet.

8 comments:

Beth said...

Good Luck! I am so hoping for GREAT news.

B said...

I'm waiting for good news. I understand the anxiety..but hope there's no need.

tiff said...

Just came across your blog!!! Congrats on the BFP girls! I will be crossing my fingers for great news for you!!!

Ps. Adding y'all to my blogroll, if that's cool!

waitinginline said...

I'm right where you are and I barely have any funny feelings down there anymore. I'm not stressed about it, yet. I have happy thoughts for you!!

eggdance said...

I know exactly what you are talking about-- I seem to worry no matter what (worry about what I feel, what I don't feel, etc.). For me it is all one big crazy train. But for you, it is all big beautiful betas!

JamieD said...

Good luck!! I hope your nerves let you get a little bit of sleep tonight. We will be waiting to hear your good news!

Chris said...

Good luck tomorrow, Heidi! I'll be thinking good thoughts for you.

Ahuva Batya said...

Keeping my fingers crossed for tomorrow-- but I feel sure it will be just fine!