Nerves

Tomorrow. Beta #3. Sooo worried. 95% of me wants to just assume all is well. I mean there has been no spotting, my boobs are becoming increasingly sore, I'm as tired as can be, and the gagging sessions each night entertain Jenn so much. So all seems well.

Then there is that other 5% of me that says "What makes you think that all could possibly be well?" I've become attached to my cramps. I remember having the same feeling early on with Blue. But, when I'm feeling crampy I'm convinced something is wrong. Now this morning, I haven't felt a bit crampy, nothing, nada, so I'm convinced something is wrong. Everything else is the same.

So I sit here. Still. Focusing. Is that a crampy twinge I feel??? Nope, I have to pee. See another sign that all is well...why must I always focus on the one thing that will freak me out??

I'll be out and about most of tomorrow, so I'll update as soon as we get home. If it's good news maybe I'll update it on Twitter (down there on the lower right...where I tend to talk about cows as of late). If it's bad news....you'll just have to wait till I blog it! But, I'm 95% thinking good, just have to keep that 5% of me quiet.