And people think I'm odd.

Yes, I like expensive purses. But Jenn, she has "more expensive" tastes than I do. (you'll get the joke in this sentence in a second.

Jenn's birthday wishlist includes two things, both of which I have determined OVERKILL.

A First Aid Kit No, this isn't just any first aid kit. This is THE first aid kit. No, I don't believe it to be a first aid kit at all, I believe it to be a survival kit, like in case the whole world disappears. (please make sure you click on the kit contents link, and note the 12 pieces of candy, that is all I need to survive.)

A Year Supply of Food. Mmmmmm MRE's. Now I've had these several times. I don't think theyu are the worst thing in the world, better than rats and bats (Survivor fans??) The thing that makes me unhappy about this years supply of food is the fact that it only comes with 165 things of the yummy cheese spread (I am not being sarcastic, I lurve the cheese spread). What are we going to do the other 200 days of the year???

This is by and far Jenn's favorite website. When their catalog comes in the mail you should see the look of sheer joy on her face as she runs in the house to settle into her Laz-Y-Girl for an afternoon of educational reading, studying, and prioritizing what she needs.

Sigh, isn't she cute??

Lots of nothing.

In case you were not aware, the two week wait sucks. (Sorry mom, I know you hate that word, but I only didn't use worse because you are reading.) Jenn asked me last night how long till we can test, I said I wanted to wait until at least 10dpiui (days past iui) to make sure the hcg shot is out of my system She asked what day are we? 2. She didn't believe me, how can we only be on day 2????

Today I should be 30 weeks pregnant. In 10 weeks I should be holding my little boy. Oh, did I tell you that we found out that Blue is a boy? Someday I'll have to tell you the story of how we found out, no one ever came out and told us, even though we had asked 101 times. I don't have the desire to get really angry right now, and telling that story will make me REALLY angry.

Tonight I am going to start walking again. Jenn assistant coaches Annabelle's softball team, so she'll be getting exercise dodging fly balls! So, to keep it so that she doesn't continue to lose 6 more pounds than me each doctors visit, I'll walk during practice.

I noticed over there on the right the labels for my posts. Number one is pregnancy. Number three is TTC. I'm hoping that we are pregnant this cycle so that TTC doesn't take over the number one spot. Silly? Yes. (Blueberry can take the #1 spot, that doesn't bother me)

I'm getting close to post #100. Anyone have any ideas on what that post should be about? I would like to hope it could be my pregnancy announcement, but I'm sure I'll post more than 6 more times before I can pee on a stick.

I had a dream last night that Jenn bought me my current dream purse. She better not have, I keep the checkbook, I know we can't afford it right now. That would be why I call it my dream purse. I had a coupon a few weeks ago for 20% off, but still couldn't make myself use it. I love my purses, and I get lots of comments about how cute they are, but I can't see spending almost two months supply of swimmers on a purse right now!! Maybe I can get it as a pushing present??

If you read my twitter updates at all you know that it is manure spreading season here in Amish Country. The other day the smell was so bad that I was gagging as we drove down the road. Then, in my ever-so-creative way, I found a solution:



Why, yes, that would be an air freshener being used as a ponytail holder! I'm such a dork!!! But, it stopped the gaggin!!

Well this was a fun post all about nada. Hope everyone is having a wonderful day! It's supposed to reach 70 here, and I could run outside naked with joy! (that would be scary.)

Swim team has been released!!

I'm sore. I don't know why I am always so crampy after the IUI, but my goodness I can barely stand up straight at work. Thankfully there isn't much to do today so I am happily strapped in my chair.

Now begins the two weeks of waiting. I keep swearing that there will be no peeing upon the sticks. But...we know me. We know how much I love to pee on sticks. I keep swearing that I won't do it until at least the morning of the blood test, if at all. HA, I doubt this will happen.

The plan if I do last is to not even dip the stick myself. I will leave some pee in a cup, and then magically following behind me the dipstick fairy (aka Jenn) will dip the stick and tell me if it's positive. If it's negative, she won't have to say anything.

Two weeks. How in the world am I gonna make these next two weeks go by without tearing my hair out? The thing is, I don't even think we'll be positive this month. So I don't know why I'm all worried about it. No, I'm not being negative, I just know myself and know nothing ever works for me on the first try lol.

(On a side note, I was all worried about getting weighed today, and ended up that I lost 4 pounds, go me!! Jenn, who always does everything better than me lol, lost 10. Hooker.)

Yes, I have an addiction.

If it hasn't become clear over the last few days, I LOVE PEEING ON STICKS!!!

The shot last night was a "trigger" shot. It's hCG, you know, the pregnancy hormone. So in the wonderful world of the unfair, I now have pregnancy hormones raging through my body, even though I'm still 24 hours away from ovulation. And yes, I woke up nauseous.


Is it really bad that I peed on a pregnancy test this morning, just to see the two lines?? Yes, it was positive. Oh how I wish that was true!!!

Jenn shot me.

That is all.

(Oh, and it hurt this time.)

How do I(we) afford all this??

Cindy and Janice posted a question in my comments the other day:

"How can you guys afford all of this stuff."

We are very, very lucky. I fully admit it.

Jenn works for a large bank that offers domestic partner insurance. A few years ago my boss (I work in a single family owned hotel, not my family) figured out that it would be cheaper to pay the amount that it would cost for me to be on Jenn's insurance, than it would be for him to provide me with insurance. Then in October of 2006 we got a letter saying that the bank was going to start providing infertility coverage. I cannot even begin to tell you how overjoyed that made us. It was like a sign. (Well, to me the bigger sign was in November when Lane Bryant started to sell maternity clothes, that means that Heidi should get pregnant. She needs more excuses to buy clothes.)

So:
I pay $25.00 copay when I see Michelle or the Doctor. (Ovary Checks, Ultrasounds, IUI's)

I pay for the swim team (they were on mega sale this month, normally I pay $360.00 this month they were only $265.)

I buy some ovulation predictor sticks from ebay, and saveontests.com Some I have as freebie gifts from girls on various boards I belong to. We share. We're all nice like that! I totally do not recommend the Ovuquick brand. They are the ones that keep giving me false positives. (they are also $50.00 for only 9 tests, on ebay you can get 50 tests for $20.00!!)

I don't trust the cheapie pregnancy tests though. There is almost always an evaporation line that gets you all excited for nothing. I bought my pregnancy tests at Costco, and if I think I see a line I pee on a digital test.

I pay $35.00 for each prescription related to fertility so Clomid and Ovudril, for a total of $70.00 per month.

I know how lucky we are. We still pay a lot, but not nearly as much as some people have to pay. There have been discussions of Jenn switching banks and going to another large bank that offers domestic partner benefits...plus infertility coverage AND IVF. But I'm not sure I would ever actually do IVF, so I don't know. Plus she really likes her job most of the time.

Any other questions? I honestly am an open book!!

Stupid freaking pee sticks.

I quit them. QUIT. I took three brands to work with me today...for backup.

First one I pee on--Positive as positive can be. PANIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The other two couldn't be more negative.

I vote negative, but keep panicking silently.


(why does panic not have a k but panicking does?)