Tuesday, September 2, 2008

I'm not trying

In the past I have tried various things during the two week wait to try and insure a pregnancy:

  • Lighting a fertility candle for an hour each evening.
  • Eating enough pineapple every night to make my lips and mouth bleed.
  • Eating an Egg McMuffin on 7dpo.
  • Wearing mismatched socks to all doctors appointments.
  • Not peeing on sticks.
  • Peeing on sticks.
  • Chanting odd things.
  • Singing Dory's song from Finding Nemo
Really this list could keep going.

This month. Nothing. Okay, I wore the socks. And I've sung the song. And we lit the candle last night (not for an hour though, because it overflowed and dripped wax onto the carpet!). But I'm not doing any of the crazy things. I'm actually rather relaxed. (Yes, I did "yell" at someone via text this week for using that word on my, sorry)

Have I been peeing like a racehorse for the last 24+ hours?? Why yes, but I'm only 3dpo, there is no way that a little baby would be causing that symptom already. I blame it on leftover trigger shot in my system.

I really plan on taking a rather what happens, happens approach this cycle. I can't help but remember that the last time we threatened my body with daily injections, Blue was conceived...maybe my body just needs a threat?

17 comments:

giggleblue said...

fingers still crossed. do what feels right, regardless!

halfadozen said...

The tww can be torture for sure. I know that the rituals are oddly comforting. But I find that they make me crazy too. When I was conceiving #1, we would pick sound tracks for the insems, and do all sorts of ritual I am embarassed to admit. And on try #12, I had lost so much hope we shot it in and then I ran off to work 15 minutes later. I think I listened to the weather and traffic report on national radio. And then I sort of forgot about it. And when I started spotting I assumed that it was AF coming. And when the clinic forgot to call with the beta results I assumed that it was a BFN and they were too busy to bother (I actually just slipped through the cracks that day). And when they called me with the news of the BFP I wondered how that could be possible, given the lack of thought I put into the whole thing. Go figure. And my son is 2 1/2.
I really, really hope this is your lucky cycle. And pineapple is yummy in moderation! (as is an egg and sausage mcmuffin... Mmmmmmm)
Hugs from here...

JamieD said...

The rituals were fun for me at first (when it was all new and exciting) but now they are a drag. Of course, I don't see any harm in a McMuffin . . .

I agree with giggleblue - do what feels right! I am sending positive, hopeful thoughts your way!

Gia said...

PUPO!!!!!!

Lizzie said...

Fingers crossed for you this month!!

B said...

I tried your girls philosophy this last cycle (PUPO) and it worked. I really believed it, every day..don't know if that's why she's knocked up right now. Now I'm chanting SKU (stay knocked up)! I'll get back with you on whether or not it works.

Gia said...

AMEN TO THAT SISTER!

j.k-c. said...

I think if you can keep from the crazy obsessing it can do nothing but help. The trick is doing that. I hope that whatever you do this cycle is exactly what you need for the BFP.
(Oh, and getting wax out of carpet: use an old face cloth or towel, put it over the wax and iron it. The iron melts that wax and it absorbs into the towel.)

Kim said...

I hear ya!

I think I need to breakdown and wash my socks. :o)

Anonymous said...

I have my finger's crossed too! And anything that makes you less crazy is a good thing. I'll be your fat cheerleader this cycle! I'm rooting for a positive!

mycowgirlalterego@gmail.com

Anonymous said...

Is that my turtle?

kirsten

insertmetaphor said...

Oh man, I can drive myself CRAZY with these rituals. I used to wear one of the pairs of earrings that Fern had given me each day of the TWW, but after a few tries that just seemed like a chore (I wanted to wear the rest of my earrings!). I've also tried carrying around various lucky rocks and trinkets but my sense of panic when one of them went missing was cause for concern so I made myself stop.

I hope your lack of tricks is the ticket!

Chris said...

I'm hoping so hard for you, Heidi!

Ninefirefly said...

What's PUPO? I think I've tried all those thigs at ne time or another. . . something's gotta work right? Good luck!

Gia said...

How are we doing over there?

tbean said...

I've been letting go of all kinds of rituals and thoughts and lucky socks...it is freeing. I hope this is it for you.

eggdance said...

This is how I am as well-- I have tried a bunch of different things, and the longer we try, the more I have the attitude of, 'well, we did our best; we cannot control what happens from here on out.' Sometimes this helps me stay more sane, sometimes not.

But keep wearing the socks! I will too!